This thing’s like a Chameleon

Posted on: May 18th, 2020

From an OCD sufferer…

It is such a cruel illness. I have a good spell. Find myself in a blissfully OCD- free zone. I dare to hope that maybe, just maybe, this time, I have ‘cracked it’. Beaten the OCD demon for good. After years of trying.
Then – whack! It has morphed. I get hit with a new worry. Instantly this becomes an all-consuming panic. In what seems like a nano-second, my brain is saturated with the most terrifying thoughts. Same process as before, different thoughts. These trigger a whole new, different set of rituals, which HAVE to be done. (It’s the only way I can shut the thoughts down). I’ve gone back into the nightmare. All over again. It hasn’t gone at all. Just changed, chameleon-like. Solve one problem, a new one pops up. Like the game I remember playing when I was a kid….

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